About Me

I'm a mentally and emotionally challenged mom raising 4 children ages 2 to 14. My purpose with this blog is to organize my thoughts and resources to help me to be as good of a parent as I can be.

My diagnosis range from chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, learning disability, bipolar disorder, lead/mercury/cadmium toxicity, adrenal failure (Addison's disease), multiple chemical sensitivities, to laziness and hypochondria.

I've been trying with everything in me to regain my health for the past 10 years. At times I think I've "arrived" and then take a dive. I constantly research and try new things to improve my health. Some things are a tremendous asset and improve the quality of life...but the battle seems unending.

The mental symptoms are the most debilitating. I've been able to homeschool my children from the bed/couch for a few years very successfully. But now, their needs are increasing and my mental capabilities seem to be declining to the point that it doesn't seem to be in their best interest to homeschool anymore. I've enrolled two of them in a private Christian school. My teenager studies from home using a curriculum called Alpha-Omega Lifepacs which does the organizing for me. The majority of my time is spent interacting with my 2 year old. We like to go on walks together and play at the park.

I am a Christian of strong faith. Through all my struggles I've come to realize that God uses all things for good...yes, even this.

I am married...going on 18 years. The Lord put us together, each with our unique strengths, weaknesses, and needs. This marriage has been a growing process for both of us. I believe that the statistics are that 75% of marriages that involve mental illness end in divorce. I am very blessed to say that hasn't been the case with us. My husband gets frustrated when he sees me suffering and doesn't have the answers. I get frustrated when I feel like I'm letting my family down by not always being the mother, wife, and housekeeper that I desire to be. But there is no doubt in my mind that the Lord put us together and will help us overcome every obstacle together.